Dear Little Bear,
You’re 6 months old now, and I can’t believe it. How is it possible that the time has gone so fast? I remember your first scream as you entered this world. I remember the very second you were placed into my arms. There was nothing like that feeling…it was absolutely incredible. And now here you are, so smart and so curious, starting to do all kinds of things on your own. You can even sit up by yourself, and are grabbing your bottle to try to be independent. I’m so incredibly proud of you, and I know these proud feelings will continue as you learn more and more about this crazy world you live in.
As I write this, I’m away for work, and you’re at home with your dad. I’m traveling more than originally anticipated. I know you probably won’t remember, but I want you to know when you read this that it breaks my heart every time I leave you. Being a working mom is sometimes the worst thing in the world. I have cried so many times in the airport, in the hotel room, on the phone talking to your dad. I struggle so much with being a working mom, let alone traveling a lot the last few months.
Why is this so hard? Why am I so envious of all the the other moms I see, or other moms that stay at home with their kids? It was always in the plan to go back to work. Your dad and I have reasons why we decided it would be this way, but there are so many days when it is SO hard. I just want to hold you forever, and get lost in the power of your little baby snuggles. My favorite is when you bury your head into me, because you know I make you feel safe. I will always protect you, Little Bear. I want you to always know that I love you more than all the stars in the sky, and will always be there for you whenever you need me. Maybe someday that will mean that I can stay home with you…but until then I’m trying to be as strong as I can, and remember that it’s probably all in my own head. And I promise I will spend every breathing second when I’m with you, to truly be with you. No phone. No distractions. Just you. And me, and dad, and our baby snuggles.
I love you so much more than you’ll ever know.
Love,
Mom
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Aww, you’re doing what’s best for your family and that’s a wonderful thing <3
Thanks Dawnene! Have an awesome weekend!
What a great letter. If it makes you feel better you are not alone in this struggle, I feel it too! I love my career, but leaving my kids never gets easier. I love what you said about not being distracted, I think that’s important…to make the most of the time we do have with our children, undistracted. Enjoy all those 6-month old snuggles, time goes too fast!
Thank you so much for your sweet comment! And thank you, yes it has gone WAAYYYY too fast!!!!! Have an awesome weekend!